Friday was Howie’s first birthday and it felt like a big milestone! It could have felt that way because he started truly walking on his birthday. It’s like he woke up and said, “okay I’m going to make this happen today”…and then he did! Or it could have felt like a big milestone because it just seems like we’ve been through a lot. From my pre-partum depression to a newborn, RSV, treating pre-cervical cancer, starting a teaching job – it’s not like we haven’t had a lot of really big changes since finding out we were pregnant!
It’s been interesting to compare my mindset now to my mindset announcing the pregnancy. Right after he was born I thought the pre-partum depression would be gone with a simple snap of the fingers. I admit that’s naive, but I guess I was just getting my hopes up. Instead, it’s tapered off gradually throughout the year – each month feeling remarkably better until I started to finally feel like myself. So, how do I feel about having this guy now? Not to sound cliche, but it’s changed my life for the better and having a kid is basically the most amazing thing I’ve ever done. Sometimes I just look at him and tear up because I wonder how it’s possible to love something so much. I heard people say that before having a kid and it’s not that I didn’t believe them, it’s just different once I experienced it on my own.
I’ve compiled some of my favorite images of his first year of life here because that’s what moms do – take pictures of our babies and then act like the rest of the world should care. Of course, you obviously care if you are reading this far, right? I can’t wait to compile a post like this next year when he turns two and I’m so excited about the toddler years! They’ve always been one of my favorites as a teacher, caregiver, babysitter, nanny, etc in the past and I imagine I’ll love them that much more with my own. I was just saying the other day that years 1-8 are basically my favorites!